Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Sick, Part II

She is sick, again. Another lower respiratory infection and this time she threw in an ear infection. This is two of these infections in less than two months, which is so not good. So, again, she is on breathing treatments, which I dislike. If you know me, you know I am anti-medication, but sometimes it is necessary. This is one of those times.

Don't let the above picture fool you, she fights taking the treatments. So. Not. Fun. I, the anti-bribe Mother, now bribe her with chocolate milkie or a candy corn if she will sit still for the treatments. Sometimes it works, sometimes not so much.

Oh, and have I mentioned we no longer have health insurance? Why is it when we have it we don't use it, and when we don't have it we need it. Between M's frequent visits to the doctor and me with my sprained ankle, it seems I have been to the doctor more times in the past six months than all of last year. Murphy's Law, I guess.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

My Marlee Kay - #2

My Marlee Kay,

Where has the time gone? You have been apart of this world, my whole world, for 2 short years. You see, 2 years ago on this very day, you and I met, and my life has never been the same. Time is going by so fast, too fast. I thought once I got past your first birthday, things would slow down. I was wrong. I thought as I look through pictures of you as a tiny baby, I would always ache to have that time back with you, to be able to hold onto you at that moment in time for a little longer. And, although I still feel this way, I am now finding myself looking through pictures of you from a year ago, even six months ago, and missing you then. You are growing up right before my eyes. It seems everyday you are learning something new and truly amazing me in one way or another. I could sit for hours and watch your little curious brain going. You are so full of life.

You have brought so much to my life. Because of you, I now find joy in the simplest things. Because of you, I feel a sense of completion. Because of you, I feel blessed and so lucky. Because of you, my heart is so full. Because of you, I know true innocence. Because of you, I smile (and laugh) every single day. Because of you, I stop and smell the flowers.
Because of you, I am fearful. Because of you, I contemplate the what if. Because of you, I second guess everything. Because of you I question greatly.

Oh how I love and treasure everything about you, my beautiful daughter...your unexpected hugs and kisses, your imagination, your innocence, watching you run into your Daddy's arms when he walks through the door...so delighted, hearing you call out for your Momma first thing in the morning...how I love hearing that word, how you say "ne-night" when you know it's time for bed, how you tell everything "bye bye" when I tell you we are leaving, your snuggles first thing in the morning, watching you dance to music (the louder the better)...especially in your car seat, your voice..

You are a determined, curious, temper mental, giggly, impatient, loving, delightful, beautiful soul. I am so fortunate that you chose me.

I love you. So much.
Your Momma

Tuesday, September 15, 2009


Yes, I am aware that I have been horrible about posting. I have so much I want to write about and document, but I never seem to find the time. Where are the days going?
With that said, I'm getting my grove back. Stay tuned.